Bleh

Why is it that i always feel this way.

I tell myself to let you go and move on, yet i can't seem to do it. It's like there's a force compelling me towards you.

You never message me, you always talk about leaving and about how much i would miss you when you do leave.

My feelings for you are obvious and yet I still don't know what you think of me, or whether there is a slight inkling of attraction towards me.

Why does this upset me so?

Has the past 4 months meant nothing to you?

Have i just been wasting my time with the hopes that one day you will ask me out?

Funny thing is, if we ever get into a relationship it won't last. If this is how it is now, I don't want to be someone responsible for changing who you are.

You know that you would be a bad partner and yet you do nothing to change that. I guess you always act like there will always be girls chasing you around.

You're not the hottest guy I've met, but there was always something about you that intrigued me. I guess my curiosity will be the death of me.

Fine.

Leave. 

There's no denying that I will miss you.

But I will learn from this.

You broke down the walls I spent my entire life building and now I've been left defenceless. Tell me the truth and give me an incentive to let go.

Only then will I truly accept the facts and forget.