I had difficulties falling asleep last night and awoke to the thunderstorm brewing outside. Once I was able to form conscious thoughts, everything that i discovered from the night before came flooding through my mind.
As I lay there at 5am, I could feel my stomach churn and my chest tighten. What am I to him?
Procrastination will be the death of me, I have not done an ounce of study and the Maths exam is slowly creeping closer and closer. I sit on facebook with his tab open, staring at the little green circle. Wondering if he would ever initiate the conversation other than when he wants something of me.
Of course not.
I'm noone important, just another girl he'll forget sooner or later.
Every fibre of my being is telling me to talk to him or get out as fast as I can. But how can I?
The feeling that dwells deep within me, compels me to him. Telling me I should ignore everything and continue on like nothing has happened.
But clearly thats stupid. I'm getting too emotionally attached.
I guess we'll have to see once exams are over.
Will I have the willpower to end things if I don't like his answer to my questions? There is a part of me that is afraid that I will not be able to go through with it.
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